"She'll knock you out with her undead eyes; Your psychobilly Bride of Frankenstein"

The last couple of days I've been a busy busy bee! I've got four corsets near completion for next friday (one of which is mine, but hey, its still four!) and I've got two more to finish. I'm really excited about potentially selling some stuff... and Adam's going to make another skeleton hand/heart necklace that will be for sale as well.

Lillian has been sick the last few days... which has been hard. I feel so bad for the little booger =( she was running a fever of 101.3 yesterday, but it dropped, thankfully! Today was she was just so tired and cranky. She had happy moments, but for the most part she would start crying if I even turned around!

My friend Meg and I have been going on "power" walks. She's helping me in the whole "losing weight" catagory. I just need to get some good walking shoes. Vans really aren't good for exercise. Not a soft enough sole! So maybe if I sell a few things I'll invest in a good pair. Maybe those fancy onces that are supposed to encourage toning and all that... Hmm.

I've found a corset that I want to make. It's a historcal corset, probably 16th or 17th century style. I'm going to make it out of faux leather and embelish it with rivets. Maybe a buckle or two. If I keep it, it will be my new pirate corset, but if I sell it, it won't be less than $300, and it will be a one of a kind. But we'll see. I found it on a google search just looking for 18th century corsets and this popped up. It's not really 18th century, but damn, its a good lookin' piece. I fell in love with it. I could just picture it in "leather" with silver rivets. Yum.

"Words, playing me deja vu, like a radio tune I swear I've heard before"

Last night Duran Duran's "Come Undone" came on the radio and Lily started singing and dancing along to it and it just reminded me of the awesome music that was played at The Shelter in Denver. I really miss dancing to good music! Going dancing here at the Dark Dreams event's is almost depressing. They play nothing that carrys a real beat that you can get lost in. That's what dancing and going out is for me: getting lost in the music and the moment, letting the world fall away so you can just release and let everything go. I should post up a playlist of a "Night at the Shelter". That should be an event here in Missoula. I'd DJ it, haha.

Today I was productive... I made both lunch and dinner for Adam and Lily, folded laundry, cleaned out my car (it desperately needed it!) and I cut out two corsets tonight. I have an aim to get them finished by next friday. Will I be able to swing it? Who knows! We'll see. I've got enough steel to do it. It's just finding the time to run the sewing machine really.

I'm so pleased, and I'm probably jinxing it as I say this, but Lily went to bed at 8:30pm, its now 10:30pm. She hasn't woken up! She slept in her crib from 5am til 10am this morning when we woke up. Hopefully we're past the stage of her not wanting to sleep in her crib! Fingers crossed!

Starting tomorrow, at 9am on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Sundays, I'll be getting up to go power-walk with my friend Meg. I'm getting really serious about losing weight. This isn't just for my self esteem, but for my health and for my daughters self-image. I don't want her to grow up seeing her own mother hate her body and constantly have breakdowns about weight. I want to be happy and healthy. Today I was happy because when I stepped on the scale, it was a smaller number than I expected. We'll see how it works out. In a few weeks I'm going to not just keep track of weight, but of my measurements too. Measure once a week and keep it down in a notebook. I ate a lot less today at meals, and had small snacks inbetween meals. I just need to up my water in take. Probably my fluid in take in general. I'm really bad about fluids.

So, the two corsets I cut out today are in the "Bella" style that I recently came up with the design for. Both are one-of-a-kinds. One will be black satin with black mesh with red rose overlay, and the other is an ice blue with a pretty white mesh overlay with flower detail. Both will be for sale!!

...My daughter is so tired she just woke up, then plopped right back down in her crib. Tomorrow we're getting up at 7am to take her daddy to work so we can have the car! Tomorrow will be an interesting day with her, maybe she'll go down at 8pm...? Maybe.

"Lay your pretty head to rest: this nightmares close to being over; welcome to the world of the undead"

So I've hit this wall right now. Not a real one, a figurative one. I'm in a slump. After possibly nearly one hundred (there's a possibility I'm exaggerating a bit...) of my business cards were handed out, I've yet to have a phone call. Not one. Nothing about my corsets or custom clothes. My models are interested in my stuff, but that could just be because I make items for them to wear and buy at a discounted price. Could be...

And thats not the only wall I've hit. I gained back the 2lbs I lost. Damnit. I'm really starting to get sick of this whole weight issue. Seriously. Here's a huge deep dark secret of mine: I used to be anorexic. And I'm severely tempted to do it once again so I can lose 40lbs in 4 weeks. That's how I lost 30lbs a few years ago. Just stopped eating for 3 weeks and the weight just fell off. But I can't do that. I'm breastfeeding a little girl, and I can't afford to ruin myself like that with a daughter to look after. That and Adam cooks damn good food.

So I need to be strong. I need to force myself to work out more... better, whatever. I need to get on a strict plan and stick to it. It's really hard for me. It's either one way or the other for me: no eating, or over-eating. It's a big problem and I'll need help getting through this. Maybe I should start a weight loss blog or something. Heh. Who knows. I need to do a full-body de-tox though. And go on a sugar-free diet to boot.

And oh my goodness, the kid who plays Sam from Supernatural is in this lame movie thats on MTV... I think its House of Wax, haha. Stupid tv. Nothing is ever on, but the cable is free, so who's to complain?

At the end of April, Adam, Lillian and I may be taking a trip to Denver to visit family. But we'll see. If we can land cheap tickets, it would be nice for us to get out of town, even just for a couple days. We'd go to the Zoo and the Aquarium. Yay. Always fun to do that!

Lillian's birthday is coming up right fast... April 26th! What to do? I have no idea how to plan a birthday party. I've debated on having a huge BBQ, and having a small one with family and some close friends. Ideas anyone?

On-And-Off-Again Inspired...

So... I've been inspired to sew, and inspired to sit on my ass as of late. I need to get crackin'. I've got six corsets started (two of which are ones for me... BAD RIP!) a skirt and a few 18th century gowns... which the latter probably won't be sold. I need to make one to sell. I have this Mint green material I think I'll make one to sell out of... since mint green and me? Don't really mix all too well.

This is my most recent finished item... for sale... its a "Bella" style corset and its pretty! I'd love to keep it, but, I need to start selling. Hopefully within the week it will be posted on either eBay or Etsy, which, I haven't decided.

Fake!

This is just a fake entry... because I don't have time to blog quite yet! But, this blog will be dedicated to my family life, my business side (if I ever get it started!) and to projects I'm currently working on. Yay! Hopefully I'll start updating regularly!